it's been a bit

Hey. It's been about a month since I was last around, so I thought I'd give an update on my situation.

A lot has happened since I decided to take a step back. I recently celebrated three years of being together with my girlfriend. I don't know how I pulled that one off. Particularly as she's been at odds with my work here in the Greater McLeodGaming Community for much of that time. But, she keeps me sane and happy and I don't know where I'd be without her. But, she's only number two in my life, and number one had issues as well....

During this time, my mom was hospitalised for a number of things, mostly related to balance and breathing. The entire family came to a screeching halt while she was away, but she's back home now and is recovering.

There are still some things I need to get together. The lab is in shambles and needs to be cleaned. I'm in the midst of a translation project. And before I make my return I'd like to get the ACX YT up to date on vods.

I'll be back very soon. It'll just be a bit longer. Thank you all for your patience.

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stepping away

Today I was dismissed from work early. For those that don't know, I'm a state-certified home care worker, and I care for my mom. I'm technically not allowed to say that, but I feel it necessary for context. I moved a bottle of Mountain Dew back on the counter and my dad's shot glass fell over and broke. It caused a verbal fight between me and my dad, because I was convinced it wasn't my fault and he was convinced it was my fault. I was sent home. I still believe it wasn't my fault.

That was about an hour ago from this page. Over the course of an hour, I've had multiple thoughts of self-harm, harming others, and even suicide. After pussying out multiple times, I knew I wasn't right in the head.

This wasn't the first time this had happened. A few days ago I had similar thoughts all over again after a session of MELTY BLOOD -TYPE: LUMINA- with my girlfriend. This time it didn't just affect me, because in falling into that place I had inadvertently drug her down with me, and that's far from what I would have ever wanted. I knew I wasn't right in the head.

Effective immediately, I will be stepping away from the Greater McLeodGaming community, including both Super Smash Flash 2 and Fraymakers, in order to focus on my mental health. This is an important crossroads in my life, and is something I absolutely need to put my undivided attention towards.

Of course, I can't drop everything cold. Things would catch fire.

I'm entrusting ThePikaPlayer to finish the remainder of the SCL season. It should just be Week 10, the play-in, and the championship.

Jay is doing just fine as Co-Head TO and I expect him to continue in my absence.

If khai wants AFMCX twitch access he knows where to find me.

when's flash is being left in the hands of the FFC TO team. I've left a template for how listings are constructed, and I'll update the website when a trusted member (probably Bird) sends me an updated file.

HOPE/DESPAIR 22, originally scheduled for 12-13 November, is being postponed to a later date to be decided on when I return.

And finally, I want to apologise to all of the players still waiting on vods to go up on the ACX YT. It'll be a bit longer. Sorry

 

I'll be back. Until next time. Good night, everyone.